Date archive: January 2012

Best Thing I Never Had

This is gonna be a quick blog bc Im doing a million things right now, but I just needed to get this off my chest… I know we’ve all had that one person in our lives that we feel that we just couldnt do without. That one person that even though things were just never “quite right” in the relationship, but you could never fully walk away, for whatever reason. That person who would push you to that breaking point where you got fed up and decided to walk away and say fuck it and felt so proud that you did, only to allow them to walk right back in your life a few months later? Well, I think anyone who has been following my blogs for a while and read my old post before the site was revamped knows who mine was. I must say that I never thought, even though I tried to fake the funk many times and say to the opposite, that I would ever be able to fully get over and move on from that person. But as I was sitting here tonite getting my things together, out of nowhere it hit me that I am SO over him. I am utterly and completely TRULY over him. I am happier than a pig in slop and loving the man that I have now and there is nothing that my old flame, or anyone else for that matter, could ever say or do that would detour, derail or even sway me from that. And I have to honestly admit that, that is the first time that I could ever say that with 100% certainty for many years. Don’t get me wrong, I wish him no ill will and I will always have love in my heart for him but thats pretty much it. All the years of back and forth, arguments, ups and downs, tears, heartache and everything else was simply to prepare me for the man that Im with now and to make me a better and stronger person. So for that, I thank him. Eventhough he put my heart thru pure hell, I am the person that I am today partly because of him. Whats sad is the fact that I dont think he ever truly saw how good of a woman I was nor will he ever know how great of a woman I am now. But thats his loss, not mine ;-) Elvis has finally left the building. Im happy for the first time in a looooong time and right here, right now, thats all that matters. So, for you, and you know who you are, I dedicate this.